1. Who am I really?- Strong, kind, but scared of being hurt.
2. What worries me most about the future?- Not being in tune with God on the way there.
3. If this were the last day of my life, would I want to do today?- I’d mainly eat: delicious chocolate ice cream, a big crocus bag full of Jamaican apples
and mangoes, saag paneer, chana masala with paneer, naan, Hellshire eschovitch fish, a whole pot of red pea soup, and jollof rice.
I would also pray, hang out with my best friends in a beautiful bug-free part of nature, remind my precious little brother of how much I love him,
see all of my family (parents, siblings, favorite aunts, favorite uncles, favorite cousins, and grandparents), and spit some poetry.
4. What am I really scared of?- Not believing in myself one day.
5. Am I holding on to something I need to let go of?- Yes.
6. If not now, then when?- As a recovering procrastination aficionado, I have many times in mind to achieve both short-term and long-term goals
whether personal or professional. I am slowly changing all of those dates to now.
7. What matters most in my life?- I wish it was God.
8. What am I doing about the things that matter most in my life?- Attempting to grow further, and love deeper.
9. What do I matter?- Because I am dope, and God fashioned me for a purpose that nobody else can fulfill the way I can.
10. Have I done anything lately worth remembering?- I have done so much spanning from putting on concerts to going to the white house.
11. Have I made someone smile today? Yes.
12. What have I given up on?- A beautiful friendship.
13. When did I last push the boundaries of my comfort zone?- I’m not sure. Since becoming intentional about pushing the boundaries of my comfort
zone, it has become a lot harder to get very uncomfortable. This means that I need to be a bit more radical & a bit more shameless.
14. If I had to instill one piece of advice in a newborn baby’s mind, what advice would I give?- Self-doubt brings even the greatest men down to
15. What small act of kindness was I once shown that I will never forget?- When I was hungry without any money & the man at our school snack bar gave me a full plate of pasta for free.
16. How shall I live, knowing I will die?- Bold. Shameless. Fearless. Intentional. Freely loving.
17. What do I need to change about myself?- How I handle being overwhelmed & my cognizance of my becoming overwhelmed.
18. Is it more important to love or be loved?- Definitely to love. Knowing how to receive love is still huge, and also something I struggle with.
I find myself infinitely better at loving than receiving love. But through dealing with my abandonment issues, I have really found the importance
and beauty in love. If you’d like to read more about this beauty that I’ve found in love please check out my post on Blessings of Falling in Love With
the Wrong Person.
19. How many of my friends would I trust with my life?-
20. Who has had the greatest impact on my life?- My godmother. My parents have clearly had a huge impact on my life. But I find a person who
chooses to be a parent when it is not required to be absolutely inspiring.
21. Would I break the law to save a loved one?- Currently pleading the fifth.
22. Would I steal to feed a starving child?- No, I don’t believe in stealing. I am making the decision to help the child, not the person I would steal from. If I decide to help, it should be my sacrifice.
23. What do I want most in life?- To understand love & fully experience it in every way.
24. What is life calling of me?- To be great. To teach. To love. To heal. To infect with positivity.
25. Which is worse: failing or never trying?- Never trying.
26. If I try to fail, and succeed, which have I done?- Possibly committed suicide. But seriously, let’s think about this. Did you succeed at failing?
Then clearly you failed. Did you fail at failing? Then clearly you really failed. I think by simply trying to fail means that you’ve failed. So I think the
general consensus is that you, my friend, have failed.
27. What’s the one thing I’d like others to remember about me at the end of my life?- That I was kind, inspirational, and loved God.
28. Does it really matter what others think about me?- Sometimes it does. But usually I wished it did not.
29. To what degree have I actually controlled the course my life has taken?- Not much. Up until college it had been primarily God and parents.
Now, I leave all of that life controlling stuff to God (other than the times I foolishly step in & regret it).
30. When it’s all said and done, will I have said more than I’ve done? I hope not. But it’s possible, and that’s scary. Definitely food for thought.